I love my husband

This is one heck of a man. I just love him! I don't know if any of you have moved recently or have had a major shift in your physical surroundings (or other things I'm sure), but it can sure take its toll on your relationships! I had a great friend whom I watched go through such a similar experience moving. Now I really do understand! Other things take precedence over things that are truly important- like edifying and uplifting your husband and being a rock for your children both in discipline and in love. It was a tough transition I will be honest. Not something I want to do for awhile. But back to the main thought.... I love this incredible man God has put in my life. He's taken such a step to regain that excitement and fire that we had as newlyweds! It's taken me a little while (I think just the fact that I am a woman- we're made to proceed with caution when it comes to love and mushy things, especially if we've been hurt in the past...) to really see if all of this was real and not fleeting. The truth is, I have a love that endures such limits...

I know some know, and some probably don't, but I have taken time (on purpose) to post this sad news in our family. Just after we told everyone the news of my pregnancy, I began to bleed. I went to the ER about 2 weeks into it and they "diagnosed" me as having an "incomplete miscarriage", meaning it hadn't happened yet, but it was an inevitable outcome. We obviously did not want to claim that over this child and we wanted to see God's hand do a mighty work in my body. After several more weeks of believing, praying, and waiting, it was evident that I indeed, did have another miscarriage. At times like these, when you pray so hard, and want so bad, and believe so much, it makes so much sense to have a terrible time understanding God and trusting in His omniscience. But the absolute truth is, though it hurt badly to lose another child, and we don't understand why it happened, I can not deny the ineffable peace that surrounds me. God is SO good. And I KNOW He only wants what's best for me and my family. And that's what we hold on to. We are doing very well. We will probably start trying again in the late summer, and we are expecting great and wonderful things!

It is a beautiful day outside! Currently 65 and sunny... and Deron's napping! I think it's time to take my book (Bringing Up Boys) and enjoy the sunshine before it gets cold again!